HAPPY FATHERS DAY SEAN!!!! WE LOVE AND MISS U LIL BROTHER / TODD R. (BROTHER) SEAN HAPPY FATHERS DAY LIL BROTHER ITS BEEN 9 MOTHS AND AND THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT THEM 9 MONTHS IS IM 9 MONTHS CLOSER TO SEEING U AGAIN IT HAS BEEN VERY HARD 9 MONTHS AND IM SURE IT WONNT GET ANY EASYER I REALLY MISS U AS MUCH TODAY AS I DID THE DAY U LEFT US,THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME GOING IS KNOWING I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY,I GOT A DOG TAG WITH YOUR PICTURE ON IT AND WEAR IT EVERY DAY IT IS REALLY COOL AS U KNOW IM SURE =) EVERYONE SEES IT AND IS LIKE WHATS THAT AND LOOK AND GO MAN THATS SWEET LOL IT IS SWEET BRO WELL I JUST WANTED TO STOP IN AND WISH U A HAPPY FATHERS DAY AND KNOW U ARE IN MY HEART AND THOUGHTS ALL THE TIME LIL BRO THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE U KNOW WHO LOVS YA BABY BOY =) 25 YEARS WITH U AND THEY WERE A GOOD 25 TOO U AND I HAD THAT BOND WE THAT WILL NEVER BE BROKEN WHEN U GROW WITH SOMEONE FOR 25 YEARS ITS HARDER ON THEM THEN ANYONE OR ANYTHING TO LOSE WE SO KNOW LIL BRO THE PAIN IS NEVER GOING TO BE GONE TELL WE MEET AGAIN AND WE WILL LOVE U MAN HAPPY FATHERS DAY SEAN,LOVE TODD
Hey there best friend. Its has been 9 months today.It doesn't seem like it has been that long. Its still seems like yesterday that we where talking on the phone to you. And making plans for all of us to get together. Then the horrible phone call came and said that you where gone. It was the worst day of our lives to here that such a great guy was gone and was taken at so young of age when he had so much more living to do. Things will never be the same with out you on this planet. You where always there for anyone to everybody if they needed you. You would give the shirt off your back for anyone. The last 9 months have taken so much time to get use to. We seen Cindy and the kids a few weeks ago and it seemed so weird without you there with all of us but we had alot of talks about all the good times. Our life will be forever changed with out you in it. Dewayne has been takening this really hard still his life has forever been changed with out his best friend there to guide him along the way and to be there for him when he just needed a good laugh or just somoene who he could trust and talk to and never be judged by. My life has forever changed also you where the only guy that I considered my best friend besides Dewayne just like Cindy will always be your best friend. WE just wish we could talk to you once more to tell you how much we cared and loved you and that we would have always done anything you needed. Don't worry to much about Cindy and the kids Dewayne remembers that you asked him" if anything ever happens to me will you watch over my family and make sure they are okay" and Dewayne promised you he would. What ever Cindy or those kids need we will be right here to help them out and make sure they have everything and anything they need. We will make sure your kids know many stories about how great there daddy was and how much he loved them and would have gave them and Cindy the world and that he did when he was around. .When we were in Michigan we buried some of your ashes on your dads grave. We know that you are happy there because thats what you wanted. THats all we want is for you to Rest In Peace and to watch over all your loved ones. Once again we love you and miss you more than words can explain and more than the world. Feel free to drop in and visit us when ever you want we would really appreciate it and of course drop by your familys. We just wanted to drop a line to you and tell you its been a long 9 months with out you in our lives. We promise that we will never forget you and for the rest of our lifes we promise to keep your memory alive..We are going to soon get tattoo in memory of you. I am going to get a chicken "So when people ask why I got a chicken on me I can tell them because of a great best friend I had that passed away and he had always called me that nickname"somewhere haven't decided where yet and Dewayne is going to get a cross with a ribbon with your name and the year you where born and the year you passed. These tattoos will mean the world to us. I always where a necklace that says " In loving memory of Sean Fowler" and your wife does also. Dewayne has key chain that says the same thing and me and her also have a pictuer frame that i made to hold your pictuire that says in loving memory of Sean. So you will never be forgotten in me and Dewaynes heart you will always hold a special place in our hearts. THank you for letting us get to know you and leting us have the privlage of being your best friend. We better end this becaue i am ready to break down and cry missing you so much. We love you Sean and we miss you so very much. Love you always and forever your best friends in the world. Dewayne and Missy
It doesnt seem like its ever gonna get better / Cindy(beebee) Fowler (Loving Wife )
Sean, Well our three year wedding anniversary just passed us up this last Saturday on the third. It was SO hard on me not being able to celebrate it with you. It seems like I've been doing nothing but crying since that day, I really wish you were still here with us. Special days to me like that just really get to me hard. I feel like I cannot stop crying, it aint fair, we should have been able to celebrate our third anniversary I should not have been sitting here crying on that day, I just still cannot understand why in the hell god had to take you from me and the kids, why that stupid doctor had toscrew up SO bad so that we would never be able to see you again it just is not fair. There were still SO many things that I wanted to be able to tell you and do with you and now it will never happen, I feel like I just cannot handle it, I feel like my life just fell apart the day that you left me. Yes, I still have the kids and thats great but our family is just not the same now that you are not in it. I couldn't fall asleep last night or the last because every time that I closed my eyes all that I could see was you laying on that table at that hospital dead that horrible day, it seemed like I was right there and that it was happening to me over again, I haven't slept much for two nights because of it and it just aint right, I wish that I would have just been seeing you standing there alive rather than seeing that again, it was SO horrible that I cant even talk about it. There have been nights that I dream that you are sleeping next to me and then I wake up and you are not there and I get SO damn sad. Why did this have to happen to us? Why did god have to break up our happy family? it just aint fair and I could never in a million years forgive him for that I dont care he should have never took you, you were not ready to go, not yet. I still remember the night before you passed away taking me to the store because I needed new shoes for work even though you needed some too you insisted on getting mine instead cause you didnt want my feet to hurt you didnt even worry about yourself and how bad yours were and that was SO sweet but thats just the way that you were you put me and the kids before yourself ALWAYS. You were the best husband and father that there ever was and I could not ever thank you enough for choosing me to be your wife, and for choosing to spend the rest of your life with me. I just wish that we could have been able to spend a hell of a lot more years together insted of just seven because that just wasn't enough for me, we should've been able to grow old together. I wish every day that I would wake up and this all would be just a bad dream and that you were still here with me. I would do anything to get you back, I would go as far as giving up my life to get yours back. Why does rotten shit have to happen to us like this? I dont understand and I never will. First you get the tumor headaches and seizures and I figuired well we will deal with it we can get through anything as long as we have eachother and we made it through them every day that it happened and I was ALWAYS by your side because like our vows said "for better or worse" and thats just what I intended on doing was sticking by your side for better or worse, because thats is just what you do when you love somebody. Then came the day that we found out that there is a possibility of me having cancer and you stuck by my side just the same, I know I never went to the follow up and I probably should to see if it is malignant but it is just so hard to do without you going there with me Everything in life is just so much harder to do without you with me, I know that it is hard for your brothers to handle losing you but I dont think any of them really understand exactly how hard it is for me to have lost you, to lose your spouse is the hardest thing in the world to happen to somebody and my life just seems so empty now without you in it, and I dont feel like I can even talk to your family about it and that is SO hard for me. I just dont feel like I can talk to them about it. Johnny has been asking me lately why you had to die when you hit your head on the table He remembers you falling that horrible morning and hitting your head on the table and thinks that that is how you died. It is SO hard for me to try to explain to him that that is not the reason that you died. And then of course theres Allyssa asking me why the doctor had to make a bad mistake and make you die?? Do you know how hard it is for me to hear the kids say those things? Its SO hard for me and I am the one that has to explain it to them I shouldnt have to be explaining that to our kids because you should still be there. IT just aint fricken fair. I could just scream. I am going in to my third week of school nthis Monday. I am trying to get right now my associates degree in criminal justice. So far it isn't that bad but I really wish that you were here to help me study like you used to do, it helped me so much. I just figuire that why not change my career? I might as well since none of the nursing skills that I have learned and known for thirteen years really helped me out the day that you passed away. I couldn't even remember how to do CPR, so because of that I am just giving up the whole nursing thing and changing my career totally. Why should I even stay in the nursing when something like that happens and I just freeze up. I guess it is totally different when it happens to somebody that you love rather than just a patient but I guess It is just time for a change. Since you are now gone from me I may as well start going into a field where I will be able to protect me and our kids if something bad ever happens. I just wish you were still to protect us but it is all up to me now, so Im hoping that this schooling will help me out. Well I took the kiddies camping for the first time last weekend and they absolutely loved it ( that is what I ended up doing on our anniversary to try to help keep my mind off of it a little bit anyways) The first night was So funny cause Llyssa didnt want to be zipped up in the tent at all she was so scared of it and when I said whats wrong there are alot of people camping out here she had to answer by saying"yea but theyve all got rvs and campers and they got doors" it was so funny and so cute I wish you would have been there especially to hear her say that you would have laughed your butt off. I miss going out camping with you we had so much fun doing that. I am supposed to take them on the 30th of June until the 3rd of July with my parents again I guess, I will probably go since it will kind of help me keep my mind off of things. Well I guess IM gonna go for now since this is really long and every thing I think of to write makes me cry even harder and harder but please know and remember ALWAYS how VERY much I love you I ALWAYS have and I ALWAYS will no matter what please know that and remember it FOREVER my baby, I miss you SO much honey, Love ALWAYS and FOREVER, your loving wife FOREVER, Cindy (beebee)
Missing you bad / Cindy(beebee) Fowler (Loving Wife ) Sean, Well we just got back from seeing Missy and Dewayne over in Munising this weekend. It was so hard going over there and seeing everybody without you there with us. It didnt seem right being over there without you there. Me, Missy, and Dewayne brought the kids up to the cemetary today so that we could visit your dads grave and put some of you up there with him I know that you would have really wanted that so that is what I decided to do. It was so hard having to do that though doing this actually made the reality hit me that you are really never coming back to us and it upsets me SO bad. It is just not fair that you will never be coming back to me and our kids and all over the carelessness of that stupid doctor. I should have never had to put you up with your dad at least not until we got really old. It just aint right. In about a month we are going to go back up to the grave and put some really nice flowers up there to make it look good I felt bad because I didnt have any to put up there today but I didnt have any extra money to buy them so that will be what I do in about a month.I know that you wanted to be able to do that so I am going to do it for you. I just wish SO bad that youcould have been over there with us this weekend. I stopped at picklemans just like we always used to do and bought a dollar scratcher just because thats what you always used to do and like usual it was a loser!!! But I had to do it just because that was what you ALWAYS did!!! I know you were watching over me and the kids during the trip because everything went okay driving there and back and I thank you for watching over us. I start school tommarrow for criminal justice I got accepted into the college and thought that I needed a change, I am really nervous about that I just hope that I do well it sucks bad that you wont be here to help me study like you used to Everything just sucks without you here baby, I would do anything in the world to get you back, I really wish that I would have been the one that was taken instead of you you deserve to still be alive because you are such a great man. I am learning so much that I never knew and would have never had to worry about if you were here like being messed over and screwed around. I cant trust anybody anymore and I never will except for the exception of a few people and that really sucks I know if you were still here I woudnt be getting messed with I just need to have you here SO bad I hate having you gone baby. I am glad that I was able to put some of you with your dad today I know you would have liked that baby and now I will also be able to visit you whenever I go up to munising and your friends there will be able to visit you too. Well I guess I better go for now since I need to get up extremely early for work in the morning please watch over me when I am driving around and I will write more soon. I will love you my baby ALWAYS and FOREVER, Love your loving wife, Cindy (beebee)
YOU WERE OBVIOUSLY A / KIM WALLACE (PASSERBY(FRIEND)) YOU WERE OBVUOUSLY A GREAT GUY MATTHEW SEAN. A VERY OUTGOING PERSON I CAN TELL FROM YOUR SITE. GOD BLESS YOU AND CONTINUE TO BLESS YOUR LOVED ONES THEY LOVED YOU DEARLY THAT IS IBVIOUS. I LOST MY BEST FRIEND 10 YEARS AGO AND IT STILL HURTS BUT TIME DOES HELP EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT. GOD BLESS YOU AND PEACE ALWAYS SURROUND THE ONES YOU LOVE. r.i.p. MATTHEW-SEAN. YOUR FRIEND IN CHRIST KIM.
NEVERFORGOT LIL BRO U LIVE ON AND ALWAYS WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!-!!!! / TODD R. (BROTHER) HEY LIL BRO, ITS FUCKIN HARD TO BELIEVE IT,ITS LIKE A DAY DOESNT PASS THAT I LAY IN BED AT NITE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS U,I WISH I COULD HAVE SAVED YOU THAT MORNING I KNOW I DID EVERYTHING I COULD BUT IT DOESNT SEEM LIKE IT WAS ENOUGH I FEEL LIKE I FAILED AND I JUST FEEL SO HELPLESS IVE NEVER FELT SO LOST AND UNSURE INSIDE SEPT 16 HAS HAUNTED ME EVERY DAY SINCE IVE WE LOST U ITS SO UNFAIR I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS AND THINGS THAT WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED,IF I COULD HAVE ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD IT WOULD BE TO HAVE MY LIL BRO BACK!!!!!!! ITS SOMETHING I LIVE WITH AND IT HURTS MAN! I LOOK AT THE SKY AND KNOW U ARE UP THERE AND JUST TALK TO YOU AND I KNOW YOU HEAR ME,WELL IT WILL NEVER CHANGE YOU WILL LIVE ON IN MY HEART AS LONG AS I WALK THIS FUCKED UP PLACE WE CALL EARTH AND THEN WHEN THE DAY GOD TAKES ME ILL SEE MY LIL BRO STANDING IN THE GATES OF HEAVEN AND WELL BE AS ONE AGAIN.I GOT A CORVETTE AND THE PLATE IS "NEV4GOT" AND IM GETTING IT CUSTOM PLATE FOR THE FRONT WITH YOUR PIC AND 1979 TO 2005 NEVER 4 GOT. WISH WE COULD GO OUT FOR A RIDE LIKE IN MY OLD ONE I REMEMBER U AND I TAKING IT OUT U LOVED THAT RIDE ILL NEVER FOR GET. LOVE U DUDE,TODD
A friend that will never be forgotten / Dewayne &. Missy Osmon (Best Friends Forever )
Sean,
Hey there buddy. Its been almost 8 months since you have left us.There is not a day that goes by that we don't think of about you.You may have left us on earth but you are still in our hearts. There are so many great memories that we will carry with us for the rest of our lives that no one can ever take away from us. As your kids get older and older we will be there for them to tell them all the great storys about you and how great of a friend you where they will know there father very well. We have finally came to and relize you are never coming back it hurts to know that but we don't blame god for this.God always has his reason for taking someone. Although we miss you very much and wish that Sept 16th would have never happened instead of making sept 16th a day of mourning we will make it a day that everyone can celebrate your life and talk about how great of a person you where. Even though we will cry we will be crying for the life you lived before this all happend and carring your memory forever. We Love and miss you very much and talk to you every night we light a candle in front of your picture to know that its burning for you. We are going to go now before the tears start to flow worse then they are. love you very much and miss you so very much Dewayne and Missy
It is just as hard today as it was the day you left us!!!!!!! / Todd R. (Brother)
I still feel tore in two Sean its no easyer today then the day i seen you leave this earth,I have a hard time sleeping,Donnt want to do anything,Feel very lost and lonley and that is just to say the least i think about you all the time i look out the window of the car and look to the sky and talk to you and i know you hear me and know how much i miss you lil brother,I come here sometimes 10 times a day just to sit and listen to the music and think look over the pictures and add to the site,i wish i could have done so much more i feel like i have failed you in so many ways,i wish i could have saved you that morning and i think to myself "Why couldnt i have" Its so heart breaking to lose my lil brother my friend and someone i love so much.I never seen it comming i just wish i would wake up and it would be a bad dream. I know its not my place to question Gods will but as a human i find myself wanting to doubt and wanting to be angrey and just questioning it you know?But i really truly and honestly feel God had a plan for you much greater then we could have wanted you here that plan is something well all have to wait to see.It had to be good because were torn in peices with out you and God knows it but deep down inside my heart i will except that and just thank God every nite that i was so fortunate enough to have had you in my life for 25 years and i thank him for giving me that joy of being your brother and sharing all the good times we shared and even the bad.It is something that i will never forget or ever trade for anything in this world the joy of our time spent togeather is worth more then anything ive ever had or could ever wish for.I know this might sound crazy but i just wish i could give my life to get yours back cause i would thats how much i love you and how much you meant too me.It just has been so very hard to go on with out you i never dreamed i would have to be talking to you on this crazy ass thing eveyday. Well im going to end with this,"Just know you will forever live on in me and i will forever keep your spirt alive as long as i shall live on this place we call earth. I love u little brother, Neverforgotten Love Todd
TO MY DEAR BROTHER WHO I LOVE AND MISS SO MUCH / TODD R. (BROTHER)Read >>
TO MY DEAR BROTHER WHO I LOVE AND MISS SO MUCH / TODD R. (BROTHER) Gone but never forgotton
You were so full of life, Always smiling and carefree, Life loved you being a part of it, And I loved you being a part of me.
You could make anyone laugh, If they were having a bad day, No matter how sad I was, You could take the hurt away.
Nothing could every stop you, Or even make you fall, You were ready to take on the world, Ready to do it all.
But God decided he needed you, So from this world you left, But you took a piece of all of us, Our hearts are what you kept.
Your seat is now empty, And it's hard not to see your face, But please always know this, No one will ever take your place.
You left without a warning, Not even saying good-bye, And I can't seem to stop, Asking the question why?
Nothing will ever be the same, The World seems empty without your laughter, But I know you're in Heaven, Watching over us looking after.
I didn't see this coming, It hit me by surprise, And when you left this world, A small part of me died.
Your smile could brighten anyone's day, No matter what they were going through, And I know everyday for the rest of my life,I'll be missing you. Close
7 months and I'm still missing you bad / Cindy Fowler (Loving Wife )Read >>
7 months and I'm still missing you bad / Cindy Fowler (Loving Wife )
Sean, Well it has been 7 months since you have passed away and left us here and I am still crying everyday hurting everyday that you are gone. I am still sitting here trying to figuire out why god had to come and take you and tear apart our happy family? Why, when there are SO many horrible people in this worl still alive, did he have to take you, the most wonderful, loving, caring man that I have ever met, the most wonderful husband and father that had ever lived? I just cant figuire it out. There were still so many things that I wanted to be able to do with you, So many more things that I wanted to tell you and now I cant, we should have been able to grow old together and you should have been able to watch you children grow up and eventually have families of their own and now none of that cant happen and it just isn't fair. I wish that there was some way that I could turn back the hands of time because if I could I would have definitly had you get a second opinion after the first doctor said that you were "all better" I still would have gotten a second opinion even though the "your all better now" came from the head surgeon I would not have cared, It wouldnt have mattered a second opinion still would have been given, I would have made it be done, but how were we supposed to know? We trusted him seeing that he WAS the head surgeon I mean who wouldnt have trusted something that came out of a doctor that high ups mouth? I know now that no matter what I will ALWAYS get a second opinion no matter how high up in rank the doctor is that gave me the first opinion, I still will be getting a second opinion. But I know that I can never turn back the hands of time and change the way things happened and that upsets me SO bad. You should still be here with us today and your not and the blame all comes down on one stupid doctors carelessness and it isn't right. I just want and need you back with us SO bad baby. I guess that I took for granted you being here with us every single day, I never thought in a million years that you would have been taken from us so early in life. I just wish that I could feel your arms around me, feel your touch, your kiss, be able to hear you joke around with and hear you tease me, play around with and wrestle with you, hear you call me "beebee" or hear you say "I love you" and me say "I love you" once again. I would give anything or do anything to be able to get you back here with us where you belong, but I know that there is nothing that I could say or do to get you back and that upsets me SO much. People say how they just try to "get over it" and how they can stop mourning, well I just say that they are totally crazy, How can you just "get over " somebody and stop mourning over somebody that you loved SO much? I know that I cant baby, I could never "get over it" or stop mourning you when I loved you and cared for you SO much, when you are the only one that I could tell anything to, even my most intimate secrets I just couldnt do it baby. I will be in mourning after losing you for the rest of my life baby. I just wish that I would have known that that last week was THE last week that we would ever spend together, I wish that I could have told you goodbye and that I love you SO much once again before you passed away, it just isn't fair. It isn't fair that you are gone from us when you shouldnt be, it just isn't. I want you back here SO bad. Easter just passed us by and it wasnt the same celebrating it without you, you should've been here celebrating it with us like you should every other holiday. It was SO hard to celebrate it without you celebrating it with us. The kids kept saying how they wished that you were here to help them paint their easter eggs, how they wished you were here to help them find the eggs in their easter egg hunt, they even said how they wished that they could share their candy with you and it was SO hard to keep myself from crying. All that I could say to them was"I know guys I wish so too" and that was even hard to say without crying. I even (without thinking about myself doing it) ended up buying a chocolate bunny for you like every year. I just cannot get used to not having you here. Allyssa went to her kindegarten roundup today and on the way there in the van she looked at me and said how she wished that you could be going with us to it and once again all that I could say was" I know sweetie I wish that he could too" and once again it was SO hard to keep myself from crying. We just went and got a big beautiful house and even with the kids running around all day long in it it still seems so empty without having you living here in it with us. God, I want you back SO bad Sean. Well I guess that I had better stop writing now only because once again I am crying SO hard now that I can hardly see my computer screen through my tears, but please remember how VERY much I love you ALWAYS and FOREVER honey and hopefully I will be able to see you again soon, Love ALWAYS and FOREVER, Your Loving Wife, Cindy(beebee) Close
Happy Easter Brother / Todd R. (Brother)
Well here i sit again knowing that my heart is full of pain and my eyes are swelling like always, i just know that you are in heaven where your pain and all the earthly worries have dissapeared and you have nothing but joy and happiness ,thats what keeps me togeather is knowing that you have any beautiful thing you ever dreamed of right in front of your face. God is great indeed and i know hes got wonderful plans for my Angel Brother he called you home for a reason and as much as my heart bleeds i would never second guess Gods reason he called you home to Heaven I know my heart will always have a hole in it tell the day we meet again But my heart also knows your in safe hands and we will meet again lil bro.I love you and miss you from the top to the bottom of my heart.Tell we meet again. Happy Easter Bro!!! Love Todd Close
Missing You At The Games / Todd R. (brother) THE GUYS PLAYING POKER
Lol i just was thinking about when you were at the poker table and always trying to take Big Brothers Chips lol We used to have a blast i sure miss that so much little brother.It makes me smile just thinking about it =) So i thought id bring the game here and well play again and you know Big Brother will Show you how the Big Dogs Play lol Miss you more then words could ever say.Ill forever and always keep you close in my heart bro and please know You will forever live on in our thoughts and our hearts.We talk about you all the time at the games.Iknow your there i feel you.Heres to you little brother.
A KEEPER / Cindy(beebee) Fowler (most loving wife )Read >>
A KEEPER / Cindy(beebee) Fowler (most loving wife ) A KEEPER
One day someone's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of they're bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't anymore. No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more " just one minute." Sometimes what we care about the most gets all used up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye. So while we have it... it's best we love it... and care for it and fix it when it's broken... and heal it when it's sick. This is true for marriage... and old cars... and children with bad report cards and dogs with bad hips and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it. Some things we keep-- like a best friend who moved away or a classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that make us happy no matter what. Life is important, like people we know who are special... and so we need to keep them close.
It has been 6 months since you passed away and life just is not getting easier at all. It is like there is such a big void in my life now that you are gone. You took a big piece of my heart when you left me in September. Life is never going to be the same anymore. I miss you SO badly baby it breaks my heart thinking that you are gone for good and that you are not coming back. I wish SO badly that you could be back here with me and our children. I got pictures of you hanging everywhere in our house so that at least one way the kids and I can still see you everyday but it is not the same as having you here with us. I try to keep thinking about all of the great memories we have together to keep me from breaking down but it doesnt work very well. It is so unfair that God has taken you from us. You will not be able to see the kids grow up, go on their first dates, graduate from high school or even they're children and it just isn't fair. My birthday was Saturday and It really sucked not having you here to celebrate it with me. I kept waiting for you to wake me up in the middle of the night to wish me a happy birthday like you always used to do but this year it didn't happen. Why does it always have to happen that the good die young? I willl never understand. We got our new house it is really big and really nice but it is just still so empty without you in it. The kids all talk about you all of the time, all of them saying how they miss they're daddy, they all give the urn necklace that is filled with your ashes which i wear around my neck close to my heart a kiss everysingle night before they go to bed because they say they want to give their daddy a kiss goodnight and it breaks my heart because you aren't here in person for them to give a kiss goodnight to everynight. The hurt is supposed to pass with time but it is just not passing for me. I cannot stand living my life without you it just isn't right. I want you back so badly I couldnt tell you that enough. I will AWAYS love you now and forever and I do not want you to ever forget it. I know that you are watching over me and the kids and I am SO thankful for that. You are my guardian angel baby. I love you SO much and I miss you SO bad. I better stop writing now because I can hardly see the screen anymore because I am crying so bad but now I got my computer and once again I'll be able to be on your site everyday again Thank God because your site is what somewhat helps to keep me in one piece. I just want you to know how VERY much I love you Sean and I dont want you to ever forget it. I LOVE YOU! Love ALWAYS and Forever, Your loving wife, Cindy(beebee) Close
well lil brother,it's been 6 long months since ya left us.i just wish i could see your smilin face in the lobby of the shop u named.i miss that snicker of yours.just like your dad.i know you's come by quit often as your cd comes on by it's self.i miss ya pretty bad lil bro.i'm glad i got to tell ya how much ya meant to me.dosen't make this shit any easier.moms with me for now.we talk about ya all the time.your bro's miss ya more than ever.that fucked up sayimg"YA DON'T KNOW WHAT YA GOT TILL IT'S GONE" is so true as alot of people are finding out how much that means. i say i love you more than ever to everyone that i care about.some tough guy i am huh?i know you'd laugh at me and call me a fag.i really miss ya.i seen the kids last week.bought them a bounch of stuff.we had fun.i guess they moved back up north.i know their safe there.hope to see ya at tim's party.i know you'll keep stoppin by and take care of everyone on the other side.i wish i could see u all. MOMERIES FOREVER (thats on the window know) love you lil brother, marc
Half of year! / Dewayne &. Missy Osmon (Best Friends forever )Read >>
Half of year! / Dewayne &. Missy Osmon (Best Friends forever )
Sean, Hey there! We can't belive that its been 6 months already. We still think of you all the time and about all the good memories that we all shared together.Between you ,cindy,dewayne and me (melissa) we have shared alot of good times together that we will cherish forever. We always knew that we could count on you in good or bad times. We always want keep visiting our past memories to keep you them crystal clear in our hearts. Wish that you could be here to laugh and reminis about the past like we use to. We plan on getting our tattoos done. Dewayne really hasn't made up his mind on what he really wants yet has some ideas but can't decide. YOu are going to laugh about the tattoo i am going to get. I am going to get a chicken on my shoulder so that when someone sees it i can explain the meaning behind it. I am sure not many people have chicken tattoos. But that is the memory that i want to keep of you because that is what you have called me for as long as i can remeber. SO that i one thing that will keep your memory alive. Also Dewayne's Dad just was worried that you were mad at him for that day I had told you that you could go and get some beer cans to turn in. I never got the chance to tell you but he gathered them all up and put a $5 bill in with them for you. He thought that you were mad at him for getting grumpy with Dewayne at first. But you know that he always cared and liked you more than all of my other friends. You are missed so dearly in our household and in our lives. Sometimes we wish that we were magic and could save the world to change things that have happened. Otherwise, Just thinking about you more than ever and wanted to vent to you some. Love you and miss you always and forever. You will always have your very own special place in each of our hearts. You have inspired much of our lives with your time here on earth that will never be forgotten. With love 4-ever, Missy and Dewayne AKA- Chicken & Preppy Boy!!!!!!!! Close
Missing you like Crazy Bud / Todd Rousseau (brother)
Just wanting to say,its been 6 months and it isnt any easyer today as it was the day that i woke to you leaving us.I still have a hard time sleeping and doing my everyday shit.I think about you from the time i get up,I lay in bed tossing and turning for hours just thinking about you and how i wish you were still here,I brake down many times a week,Like im doing now.I just never have felt anything so bad. I"ve always been a strong person and have faced alot in my life time and always been able to get past it one way or another,well ive found something that has showed me im not as tough as i thought i was.I sit and cry like a little bitch wishing and wanting you back.I just feel like so down so mad so sad its like im not me anymore.I never thought about you or any of the family not being here.Its the most painfull thing i think life has to offer to lose someone you really love and care about.I know you know i come here everyday sometimes 20 times a day and just look at the pictures and listen to the songs if im on line your on my desktop.If im not here im looking out the window of the truck thinking about you or out on my patio looking up at the stars thinking about you,Or getting a pizza or a dew lol or a lottery ticket lol all i can say is you aint gone little brother you live on in our hearts every day and its so great to have you there. Love You Man,Todd Close
My prayers are with you / Jane Jones (Mom to Matt Jones )Read >>
My prayers are with you / Jane Jones (Mom to Matt Jones )
I am so sorry about the loss of your loved one. I appreciate all the kind words you have said visiting my sons sight. There is no sense in this type of violence and I pray that you will get justice also. If they would allow justice to be administered to these creeps they would let us handle it. I am praying for you all and especially his three small children. My Matt's child will be born in the next 4 weeks and she will never get the chance to know her Dad and it is a shame. Keep his memory alive for those precious kids he left behind. Thinking of you all.
May God speed you comfort / Elaine Hess (Angel Mom-Passerby )
I pray that God speeds you comfort and peace as we walk this painful and lonely walk together. Although our losses are of different types, the pain is still very deep, cutting like a knife and the wound never heals until the day that we are reunited with our loved ones. I find comfort in knowing that they suffer no more and they are pain free! Matthew-Sean is a great man and father! What a blessing he was to everyone in his life! Take care and know that you all are in my thoughts and prayers. Elaine Hess http://jessica-hess.memory-of.com
So sorry for the loss of your loved one.It's so cruel why we have to lose all the good ones and alot of the bad are here to stay.I know it just doesnt make sense.We can ask a thousand "WHY'S" but we will never get the answer.People say that God needed them up there,well thats pretty shit coz we needed them down here more.My thoughts are with you and I'd just like to say Thankyou for stopping by and lighting a candle for my Angel niece Laura Jean Porter.
/ Marissa Anderson (girlfriend of Buggs Traill )Read >>
/ Marissa Anderson (girlfriend of Buggs Traill )
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to your family. I lost my boyfriend Dec 4 2005, 20 days before his 22 birthday and I know how much it hurts. May God bless you all and stay strong.
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Sean,
. THank you for letting us get to know you and leting us have the privlage of being your best friend. We better end this becaue i am ready to break down and cry missing you so much. We love you Sean and we miss you so very much. Love you always and forever your best friends in the world. 
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